It’s 11pm and i’m missing you.

it’s 11pm and i’m missing you.

grief is such a complex thing. it’s been 9 months and my mind still refuses to process it. i miss you. i miss hearing you speak to me and god knows i would kill to hear your laugh. you were such an amazing human being and i’m so glad i got to experience you the way i did. i miss having study dates and sleepovers and giggling the night away talking about anything and everything. i miss bonding over songs and tv shows, there’s so much new music out now that i know you would’ve loved. i find myself thinking about you even when doing the most regular things like making a tuna sandwich. god i miss your tuna sandwiches. i listen to the last voice note you ever sent me sometimes, giving me your two cents about the new black mirror season. i still can’t bring myself to finish it yet because it doesn’t feel the same without you.

it’s been 9 months and i’m still learning how to navigate through my grief. Anyway. i should go to bed. i have school in the morning. i love you so so so so much V. i hope we can meet again in the next life time.

• Tribute By: Nicole Mahina